Well, I suppose that now I have a dev-account, I should be doing more on it. So, how's about a small entry on how things have been going lately?

-I've begun to come to the conclusion that I've lost my faith, if I ever really had any to begin with. Ever since I was little, never had much of a desire for religious matters; knowledge of doctrine, yes, but not the personal practice of such. I've always held a curiosity in the beliefs of others, Christian or otherwise, but when it came to my own, I didn't try to define it so much. For the longest time, I thought it was just the feeling that it was being forced on me, which, in a way, it was. Although I still somewhat feel this way, I know I'm not as trapped by it as I once thought. My people ask me if I would ever consider leaving mine for another form, and my answer is and always will be 'no'. After being brought up in a religion such as the one I have, I see no real truth to others to make it better than the rest.

-I still haven't gotten over my major case of the dreaded "Artist's Block" that I contracted over a year ago. It aggrivates me to no end since I've had such battles ever since I started to focus on art, but this has to be the longest timespan that I've delt with such. I doodle minor things every now and then, but nothing like my better works in the past. I dislike anything I do regardless, but now it is especially maddening knowing I'm nowhere near where I was before. Most people get better the more time passes, but I feel as though I've stopped & perhaps begun to regress.

-Our 5 month anniversary is tomorrow. This will mark the longest >consecutive official< relationship I've ever been in. Pathetic, I know, but it does mean something to me. Unfortunately, last week a new decision was brought to the fore. Since its still up in the air right now, I won't go into detail, but it does sadden me nonetheless. Its a great opportunity for him & I sincerly hope everything turns out well. He really does need it, and its still a ways off, so who knows what our situation will be then? I actually hope it will be even better, but it would at the same time make it even harder to do what needs to be done.

Anyhoo... enough with all this depressing crap. I need to go help Havoc clean before the landlord comes over to fix stuff
love ya'll!